Hired!

I got the job!! I'm an employee at Value Village starting Wednesday morning. I was in the car, between houses with my old boss and I had voicemail so I checked and returned the call :) And YES!! She had given me a great reference too, she told him he doesn't even need to think about it, he should just hire me because I'm so awesome. lol She said that tooooo which made my day.

I got a lot done today and it feels so good when I do that. I worked this morning, an easy 60 bucks in cash, which just about brings me up to making rent for the end of the month (I work with her one more time tomorrow so I should be good :P) and even though won't be able to afford a bus pass this month, that's okay. I'll just go where I need to go. Maybe even sometimes walking there. I mean, work is so close but it's still a 40 minute walk. I did the usual boring routine chores. The vacuuming, dishes and laundry. Did some photoshop, took a nap, and it's just 9:30 now.

I'm almost done my painting now, and I might work on it a bit tonight but I'm tired, and haven't EATEN yet!!! Here's what t looks like so far...The photobooth webcam doesn't do it much justice. frig. Okay... time to go.

Rain and Paint

:) Soooo Today was wonderful in it's own little way... bahaha Who talks like that. But really, it was. I slept until 1pm with my boyfriend because HE couldn't sleep last night and kept waking me up! That strange man of mine. He tries to pick my nose sometimes when I'm sleeping and doing other nice things like that. But it didn't matter. When he falls asleep facing away from me then wakes up to pull me under his arm, it's so nice that I don't even care what time it is anymore.

The day was supposed to go a little like this: Wake up before noon. Head down to some bike shops then eat some late lunch at Sweet Basil so he can go straight to work from there. After which I would pick up juice, milk and kitty litter and come home to clean and paint and finish 2 photoshop lessons. Then I planned to write a little bit until Shaun got home.
Needless to say, we never made it to any bike shops or cute little Thai food restaurants. We stayed in anddd I spent time youtubing and facebooking while he programmed. I did do my chores though :P And I'm just taking a tiny break from painting.

This painting, man!! I started it, oh... 2 months ago. It sat under our coffee table for the past month and 3 and a half weeks. It's going to be a replica of a picture my boyfriend took when he went to the States last summer. It's gorgeous. It's taken in Arizona and his photography skills just seem to be perfect when you're considering this particular picture. I love the small mountains on either side. There's a road running in from the left hand side up the middle of the photo and yeah- it's just lovely. I guess I'll have to post it when it's all done. Who knows when that could be though, this is my first time getting back to it in a while. I have a big procrastination problem, which I have probably already mentioned in one of my other posts that I probably wrote while putting off doing something else. :)

Now it's raining out, or was until about 3 minutes ago. It usually is. Puts me in a good mood though :P Such a relaxing sound. There's a pool where we live here and everytime I do get in the mood for a swim, it rains. So I haven't used the pool yet. But HEY why should a little rain stop me? Oh yeah, because I find a way to turn most things into excuses. hehh Lovely trait I possess.

So today was relaxing other than carrying 40 lbs of kitty litter to a bus stop that was just a 5 minute longer walk than I would have liked... andddd yeah. A bit more coffee and/or tea and it's bedtime for me. :)

Probably Got the Job!!

I had my second interview today at Value Village and I'm pretty sure I got the job :) I had to answer all these "Tell me about a time when" questions. Those were fun. lol But I made him laugh and had decent answers for the most part.
I'm surprised too because an hour earlier I was almost in tears about O.S.A.P. Gahh SO GAY. I probably won't get any money from them because a) I'm a dependent student because I took a year off school and b) my mom and dad don't make enough to put me through school?! I thought that's what OSAP was FOR!!! What the eff is this shitty system anyways??! Well, I have an appointment with my "case worker" or whatever the eff you wanna call her. She called herself that in the letter. So we will see how that goes on Monday. Frig. FRIG. I would just like it if for a while, my life went smoothly. But I guess that would be boring.

Anyone else notice the constant shitty weather? Not that anyone reads these yet, but holy crap, where's summer? It's rainy or clouded over for the most part. Then suddenly it's so humid you can't breathe outside... or so I find :P I'm not made for hot weather anyways so what am I complaining about!!

I have a few options for weekend plans and it's Friday afternoon and I still haven't decided.
I could sit at home and relax and write blogs and make photoshop pictures anddd what else? Umm sleep a lot and take a bath or 3 with TEA. :) Or I could go camping with my cousin and her man. lol Which would be fun except the shitty weather, but then again, that could make it even more interesting... but then I wouldn't see my boyfriend all weekend. But I would have free beer because I'm too poor to buy my own! And I would go real camping haha. I've only been camping once. At Rainbow Falls like 6 years ago or something ridiculous like that. We had a camper, movies and full meals, so it wasn't really camping. My cousin's into naturey stuff so we would really be roughing it the whole weekend. It would be an awesome experience though. Oh dear, before I wrote this I had kind of decided to stay home just because... But now I'm wondering what I should do. OH DEAR!

I wonder if anyone's even interested in any of this stuff that I'm writing about. I mean so far, I haven't said much, just chilling in my thoughts, not even my interesting ones. But I love reading those books that are layed out like that. Just a person, thinking about stuff, going about their daily lives. And you get to read how they think. You get to follow along and see how simple lives can still be so breathtaking. If I could make a reader feel that way, I will have completed my goal. And I know I have that in me, it's just that as soon as I sit down to type, a lot of my thoughts fall apart. I may start jotting stuff to write about so that I'm not wingin it :P Wingin it like a freakin ostrich.. doesn't.. since they have tiny wings. And they probably are such insignificant little things (the wings, not the giant birds idioths) that it just isn't right to refer to them when you use the term "wingin it". Is that even a term? YES.

Okay bye

A good Dayy :)

I had an interview at Value Village today!! I believe it went well, I have a second one tomorrow actually. I would love to work there. No uniform, laid back job, nice people, I mean for minimum wage that's all you can ask for really :)

I'm feeling a lot better than I was those past few days. I got some things done, like finishing up my functional resume even though I may not need to hand a single one out now :P And keeping up with house chores and all that junk. The only thing pissing me off lately is Clarrice. My darling cat. He has been so demanding lately I actually slapped him the other day. Not an abusive slap, just a shut-the-eff-up-or-you'll-get-an-abusive-slap type slap :) He just always wants attention and I know I've been out a lot but why can't he just chillll like Tucker? My other amazingly lazy cat.
Friggin cats.

I have some hopes and dreams for the rest of the summer. And yes, you're gonna hear about them right now. I want to go to Wonderland for one. I need to feel like a kid again for a day. I am craving a rollercoaster or 2. It would complete my summer. Two: I want to start my freaking book. I mean actually start it. As much as I seem to adore procrastination, nothing is getting anywhere until I get a real outline done up and then type like mad. I have every idea on paper, or a whole bunch anyways but that doesn't count for much. THREE: Stop this money stressing madness. I want to make just more than enough to pay all my costs and junk so that I don't need to call relatives anymore at the end of the month when I can't buy my bus pass or pay all the rent!

Haha I get so excited about things that my mind turns to mush sometimes and then the things that I get excited about are ruined. It works. Like when I'm so super pumped that an interview went well that I stop handing out resumes. And then never get a call back. And then have wasted a week or so not looking for work. That sucks. lol OR or.. when I plan things like writing a BOOK for example *rolls eyes* and I'm so excited that I can't sit at a computer with a new document open because it just sits there still empty while a billion ideas go through my mind and suddenly an hour has passed with me daydreaming about what could write instead of writing it and then I have to move on to other things. HA

Well, that was just a random thought, I actually forget how that fits into anything else I mentioned but I shall go now. My tummy's grumblin and my potato of a boyfriend will be home shortly :)

A Tuesday

Well, I slept in again until just about noon... I should have been out job hunting again but after 3 weeks it just gets so irritating. It's impossible to stay motivated, and I'm thinking, well I have casual work, maybe that's enough for me to skip the resume's today. I work at a call center downtown but it's slow in the summer, like one 5-hour shift a week slow... And my old boss keeps calling me. That's another thing. I quit this cleaning job like 3 weeks ago and last week she needed me Tuesday to Thursday. I quit because it was hurting my wrists, might have tendinitis and the doctor's told me to get out of that job as soon as I could, so I did. But when she called, I was really in a bind for cash. So, I figured that was a good excuse not to job hunt most of the week. Whatever.

Me and my boyfriend are supposed to go downtown to check out the new Apple store, even though I already went twice. But I'm waiting for him to finish something on his website. It's pretty much his life right now. And I knew living together would mean less quality time together but I can't help but feel crappy anyways sometimes. I just hope my outlook turns around soon because I hate when I go through these low times. It's like a season of sadness and just negativity that I can't seem to avoid... only hide; then suddenly it will lift, and I'll feel so good about everything, filled with a hope that came from nowhere and I'm always left wondering how I get form one to the other. What's my trigger?


Anyways this doesn't seem to make much sense. So we'll leave it at this.

the introduction

Well, this is totally new to me so I guess I should introduce myself first.

I'm 20 years old, we won't bother with my name for now. It's not really important. I'm starting a blog first off to sort my thoughts a bit. Also because I want other people to tell me how boring/interesting I am, whichever that may be. I'm a terribly complex person when it really comes down to it, but I have this thing where I try and portray myself as simple and normal and functional. I drive myself crazy over thinking things and you wouldn't believe the thoughts that go through my head when I'm in these mind blowing, time-consuming... daydreams I guess you could call them.

I'm a person who tries to please others at all costs sometimes. It can be a great thing and it can be such a downfall and a very emotionally draining problem. I've never bothered putting some of these things down into words, until now. And I hope this will help me progress as a writer and a thinker, and a person in general.

You can just call me Tree... that's what they usually do anyways.